Love. What does that even MEAN anymore ??

Okay, so i realize this is my first blog, but i ran out of memory on my laptop journal thingy :) and i needed somewhere to put all the crap filling up the already limited space in my head. :) so, here it goes..


Yesterday, i was talking to my best girl friend, Lindsay, and my best guy friend - who i also happen to be in love with - Joey, and i got a chance to review and revise my opinion on Love.

You see, it all started when Lindsay made me call Sam, who she's been in love with for 2 years, and ask him out for her. Of course, just because life is cruel, he said NO. But, did he stop there ? NO. Like all boys, he didnt THINK before he spoke, and proceded to say, 'Not even out of pity.'
Oh, and did i mention i was three-waying with Lindsay ? Yeah. So , i spent the next 4 hours, yes, FOUR, trying to explain to her why i thought Sam wasnt good enough for her, she'd find some one new, blahblahblah, supporting friend-type things.

[Lindsay: i HATE crying myself to sleep over Sam, im sick of it. ]
[Ashley] 
One day, your going to get into bed, and realize that you feel NO desire AT ALL to shed even ONE tear over this guy, because you're just setting yourself up to be knocked down, and you're completely over it. And then you'll move on. :]
[Lindsay: only good people find love. Im not good enough.]
[Ashley]
Okay, are you kidding me here ?? Love is a FEELING. It is a mutual connection between two people, and EVERYONE, no matter WHAT they've done in their lives, can feel. One of these days, you're going to meet a guy who sees you as perfect, no matter what you're wearing, saying , or acting like. And maybe THEN you'll see that all those other guys ? They DONT matter, and they NEVER did, because all that matters is this guy, these feelings,  and the moments you spend together.
[Lindsay: i dont think i'll EVER end up with someone,because every boy i have feelings for NEVER returns those feelings.]
[Ashley]
Sometimes, the person you end up with comes out of nowhere and leaves you totally breathless, because they are the one single person you thought you'd never, EVER end up with. But that's the thing about love. It's hard.There will be (there probably already HAS been) days where you absolutley HATE love, and think it's ridiculous and stupid. But then you'll either meet that one person, or you'll remember WHY you fell in love in the first place, and then you'll feel like you're on top of the world, flying, feeling like love made your life complete - or some other equally CRAPPY, cliche statement .
Oh, there'll be bad days; the ones where you're fighting, throwing things. Screaming until it hurts just to whisper.
But then you'll make up,and you'll realize that you actually LIKE the fights and the yelling, and kissing in the rain, because they make you think about WHY you love that person, and WHY you want to make up with them so badly.  Love and Fighting kind of come as a package deal in  most relationships.

I can't tell you who you'll end up with, or when & where you'll meet, but i CAN tell you to trust me, and to keep your head high. Because until you DO find him, you'll have you're friends right there beside you, keeping you upright and presentable, so you don't scare him off ;)
Kidding, i love you :)


And so now you know how i feel on love. None of this was meant to be fact, it's just my opinion and thoughts. :)
Hope you like what goes on in my 'mind' ;p


♥ashleeey;